it's been awhile.

it's been two months since i've talked last.
i feel like i've grown into someone that can offer something.
and that is only in two months,
in the past year i feel completely new.
fresh, alive, positive, unaffected, &in touch with the realities of life.

friends have come &gone, friendships have lessened &intensified -
supposably i just can't satisfy everyone, who would have thought? ha.
but i have also landed myself next to some of the most excellent characters since my highschool career.
i've become fully aware of what it is i want for the future, for today, from myself, &from others.

in about 2 weeks i go to see my therapist whom i havent seen since the beginning of this school year.
we had planned this meeting since the day i told her it was time i ended our meetings &figured things out on my own.
it's an interesting concept this time around;
i have an hour to spill out the most important moments, the lesser details, &my realizations from the past 5months.
60 minutes to show her that i can be on my own &survive.

i've been in &out of different relationships since the last time i saw her
&i've been on my own. i have experienced the best for me &the worst.
for now i have to go - i'm visiting my family &for the first time i feel like they truly approve &admire me.
they said i was classy &we've had some great conversations. i suppose i feel like i don't frighten or worry them anymore
it's a great feeling when you feel like you are finally being seen for who you truly are.